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The Short Answer:

Because in retrospect, it’s kind of embarrassing.

The Long Answer:

Do you ever wonder how a famous person feels when they make something terrible? And after?

I mean terrible as in that book, that movie, that show, that episode, that song where if they ever get asked about it later, they just laugh, shake their head, and reply “Oh god, just…don’t talk about that.” Or they do that while faking a laugh. Or they just glare until the other person changes the subject.

That’s sort of how I feel about everything that’s on this blog.

I made this a long time ago. It’s at least 5 years old, by my estimate. Back then, I was in high school. Back then, I was an idiot.

The things I’ve written here are immature and pointless. Many (if not most) of the posts were written either in a state of sleep-deprivation or emotional duress. Those are usually the times when I feel the most self-important. Or when I find myself amusing. Whatever the case, those were the times when I felt it was most imperative that I shared my thoughts with the world, and the times when…I really shouldn’t have.

Most of my posts absolutely reek of someone who thinks that “rambles” are valid and meaningful. I’m ashamed to say this, but it’s taken until recently for me to recognize that “rambling” is a word best associated with senile old men, characters in clichéd romantic comedies, and adolescent girls who overestimate the degree to which they are “adorkable”.

In addition, a lot of what I’ve written divulged an inappropriate level of detail about other people in my life. Sure, I can share as much about myself as I want; but it is not my place to give away information on others without their consent.

That’s why I’ve hidden most of my posts. They do not merit further attention, and really, they never should have been posted.

I’ve toyed with taking this blog down for a while now, but up until now, I’ve been too lazy. Also, a few times, I’ve convinced myself that I should keep all of it posted and public “for posterity”. But honestly, this doesn’t deserve posterity (or is it “posterity doesn’t deserve this”?).

Full disclosure: there’s a rather large measure of vanity and fantasy behind this blog. I entertained this idea that I might attract the attention of the masses and become “internet famous”. Clearly, that was a pipe dream.

However, that’s why this blog still exists. That’s why I’ve password protected all the entries (and the password’s not that hard to guess either). If I really wanted it gone, it would be  so easy for me to make this entire blog private, so that only I could go back and laugh at myself. But I still have a vain hope in the back of my mind that someone finds it important enough to try and figure out the password, or contact me to ask for it.

Either way, it’s all hidden now. Well, actually, I still have one or two posts left public; the ones that don’t reveal anything, and that I actually still find amusing.

It’s been fun. So long for now.

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